Long lumbering conversation, but damn important to remember for the rest of my career. Conversation comes with afterthoughts. Not always the best thoughts in the scheme of things, but this is not a diary for nothing is it?





Vince - whales don't sing in captivity says (1:09 AM):
working?
breezyland says (1:09 AM):
hey
u r ard
ya..trying to do some work
breezyland said (1:12 AM):

u at home liao?
Vince - whales don't sing in captivity says (1:17 AM):
ya
have to attend event tmr
Vince - whales don't sing in captivity says (1:18 AM):
do some interviews to make some people feel important
breezyland says (1:18 AM):
wat time

Vince - whales don't sing in captivity says (1:18 AM):
all the questions already drafted out by the pr agency
i go there show face
earning money is very kiss ass
Vince - whales don't sing in captivity says (1:19 AM):
11 30 is the interviews but i have to go early feed dusky boy
breezyland says (1:20 AM):
ic....
Vince - whales don't sing in captivity says (1:20 AM):
oh.... i think best part is
breezyland says (1:20 AM):
like that earn easy money leh
Vince - whales don't sing in captivity says (1:20 AM):
interview about 20 questions
WHO
WHO earn that easy money
definitely not me
i am the one who has to interview
have to record, translate recordings into text
arrange the text into something coherent
breezyland says (1:21 AM):
oooh
i to u onli ask
Vince - whales don't sing in captivity says (1:21 AM):
so u tell me whose money is it that is easy to earn
breezyland says (1:21 AM):

Vince - whales don't sing in captivity says (1:22 AM):
tts why my boss never give me any pressure even though im so late this issue
do stuff for KL
do my own work
do events stuff for events


To be fair, she expects me to always find a shorter, faster way of doing all that.

I don't always do it. Sometimes, I expect not to always have to be given more stuff to do so that I can break my brain finding easier, faster, cheaper ways of doing that stuff. Way to sell out.

And burn out.





Vince - whales don't sing in captivity says (1:23 AM):
i need to start preparing back roads
in case bad things happen
breezyland says (1:23 AM):
eh...
breezyland says (1:24 AM):
do so many things
hope the new person will come in soon
Vince - whales don't sing in captivity says (1:24 AM):
i will be the one who choose the new person
and she will have to be super good
breezyland says (1:25 AM):

wanna hire woman huh
Vince - whales don't sing in captivity says (1:25 AM):
yea
chances are she will be better than me
which is why i need the back road
breezyland says (1:25 AM):
eh
like choosing wife like that
wat is the new position call
Vince - whales don't sing in captivity says (1:25 AM):
no la
Vince - whales don't sing in captivity says (1:26 AM):
u got choose wife before?
its not the same
she's writer/sub editor
will likely hire someone fresh frm uni
so tt she is affordable
breezyland says (1:26 AM):
ic
breezyland says (1:27 AM):
but u will be better than her mah
Vince - whales don't sing in captivity says (1:27 AM):
and i don't think i'll be able to hang on to her for very long
breezyland says (1:27 AM):
with the experience
Vince - whales don't sing in captivity says (1:27 AM):
i'll hire based on talent
talent in certain types of writing is special
breezyland says (1:27 AM):
ic
Vince - whales don't sing in captivity says (1:27 AM):
to be honest i don't suit my target audience
Vince - whales don't sing in captivity says (1:28 AM):
most people who read my magazines are women
if im trying to charm them, then ok
breezyland says (1:28 AM):
gee..
but u r doing a great job wat
Vince - whales don't sing in captivity says (1:28 AM):
then they might not mind
yea i do ok
but i bear in mind that there's someone somewhere who can do an even better job
its what i know
Vince - whales don't sing in captivity says (1:29 AM):
my product is off center in the market
i have a very strong personality in my magazines
its unlike other magazines, where almost all of them sound the same
Vince - whales don't sing in captivity says (1:30 AM):
question is... what do readers/clients prefer?
breezyland says (1:30 AM):
conduct a survey
Vince - whales don't sing in captivity says (1:31 AM):

how
breezyland says (1:31 AM):
engage marketing company
Vince - whales don't sing in captivity says (1:31 AM):
orh... who will pay them to save my job
Vince - whales don't sing in captivity says (1:32 AM):
hee. i always push the limits
breezyland says (1:32 AM):
haha..ur boss
actually i kind of share ur sentiments
when u say "but i bear in mind that there's someone somewhere who can do an even better job"
Vince - whales don't sing in captivity says (1:33 AM):
what u mean
breezyland says (1:33 AM):
cos recently a new coll joined
then my boss kinda assign her in all areas of our work
breezyland says (1:34 AM):
she is oso a fresh grad (masters), with several months of workg experience in TTSH
well anyway
Vince - whales don't sing in captivity says (1:34 AM):
well
Vince - whales don't sing in captivity says (1:35 AM):
yesterday my boss send me email with intention to hire
today someone sent me a CV
i wonder if it is coincidence
this girl
breezyland says (1:35 AM):
oh wow
Vince - whales don't sing in captivity says (1:35 AM):
used to work in mediacorp publisihng
now doing masters in lit studies
looking for freelance editor/writing work
i read her portfolio sample, im not totally impressed
Vince - whales don't sing in captivity says (1:36 AM):
this is my edge over hers
i can envision a better job that she can do
but once she learn it, she can have my job. hahahaha
this is what i mean by talent
maybe i shld redefine talent
Vince - whales don't sing in captivity says (1:37 AM):
new people in organisation is part of life
it challenges you to become better too
u shld embrace it
nobody can survive without challenges
breezyland says (1:37 AM):
hmmm..u can envision a better job that she can do
Vince - whales don't sing in captivity says (1:37 AM):
yup many lessons i can teach her.
breezyland says (1:37 AM):
meaning she's overqualified
Vince - whales don't sing in captivity says (1:37 AM):
she's editor in chief of d&lce magazine in mediacorp before
but
while i can improve her writing
Vince - whales don't sing in captivity says (1:38 AM):
i cannot myself do her style of writing
u see what i mean
i know how to do it, but i can't do it
its not my specialtise
my writing suits fhm, guy magazines
she suits girl magazines. coz she is girl mah
u know what i mean
girls and guys appreciate different things
breezyland says (1:39 AM):

yes..
Vince - whales don't sing in captivity says (1:39 AM):
for me its important to be engaging and interesting
and i use humour and other tricks
breezyland says (1:39 AM):
so this is her kind of job
Vince - whales don't sing in captivity says (1:39 AM):
but girls want sensual, style, elegance
typical girl language
which im not lor
do you really see me writing an article on enhancing eyelashes
breezyland says (1:39 AM):
that's true
breezyland says (1:40 AM):
haha..
Vince - whales don't sing in captivity says (1:40 AM):
they read it, they feel it, they get it
when a girl write it
breezyland says (1:40 AM):
oso depends of wat kind of readership the mag is targeting at
Vince - whales don't sing in captivity says (1:40 AM):
but i can't do it. i know it long ago when im always asked to write ads for fancl, l'oreal, etc
i hate it
style is stupid for me
style is boring because its always using the same words
Vince - whales don't sing in captivity says (1:41 AM):
i hate it
so tts why i eventually stop working with ex boss
coz she has a lot of those kinda jobs
breezyland says (1:41 AM):
eh..
Vince - whales don't sing in captivity says (1:41 AM):
i just hate boring jobs
anyone can do it
breezyland says (1:41 AM):
so now u need to find a job that suits u
Vince - whales don't sing in captivity says (1:41 AM):
no need me to do it
i put it this way
Vince - whales don't sing in captivity says (1:42 AM):
you can't challenge my ego by asking me to make girls like me
the challenge is not there coz im a guy, i don't need girls to like me
if i want them to like me i will do individual things tailored to the girl right
not pretend to be one of them
Vince - whales don't sing in captivity says (1:43 AM):
so eventually all her jobs i oso dislike to do
coz she sell based on her idea of great, and i fail to deliver coz its not my kind of style
same thing at this company now.... but.... big difference..... a lot of clients are guys
Vince - whales don't sing in captivity says (1:44 AM):
so i got to make the guys laugh, and charm the girls
breezyland says (1:44 AM):
ic....
Vince - whales don't sing in captivity says (1:44 AM):
health stuff is not easy for girls to do
and those who are already doing it, are not very interesting
Vince - whales don't sing in captivity says (1:45 AM):
eg. (&%^(^
breezyland says (1:45 AM):
u r the exception!
Vince - whales don't sing in captivity says (1:45 AM):
yea but if u can find a girl who gets health stuff
i show u an article
this article will make u understand why i know there's someone out there who can do a super better job
breezyland says (1:46 AM):
sure
Vince - whales don't sing in captivity says (1:46 AM):
http://www.glamour.com/health-fitness/2009/06/what-no-one-ever-tells-you-about-losing-weight
u read it
and u tell me that she has 50 TIMES more interesting style than mine
i won't be insulted coz i agree
Vince - whales don't sing in captivity says (1:47 AM):
THIS is what health magazines shld be like
Vince - whales don't sing in captivity says (1:48 AM):
i choose this article to show u coz i know u wld have a personal stake in its relevance
breezyland says (1:48 AM):
but then she's a women mah
Vince - whales don't sing in captivity says (1:48 AM):
yes precisely
she's a woman
breezyland says (1:48 AM):
narrating her own experience
Vince - whales don't sing in captivity says (1:48 AM):
and women want to know how other women feel
unlike guys
im not a woman
my weight loss experience only makes sense to you if im gay
i lose weight for different reasons - if i say i wanna lose weight to be more attractive then im not so guy already right
breezyland says (1:49 AM):
hahah..
yes...agree that women wat to know how other women feel
Vince - whales don't sing in captivity says (1:49 AM):
then become metrosexual which is not bad
breezyland says (1:49 AM):
understand the experience
Vince - whales don't sing in captivity says (1:49 AM):
most women like well groomed guys
but im not a well groomed guy
i like dirt
i think dirt forms a protective layer over skin
Vince - whales don't sing in captivity says (1:50 AM):
so.... tts my start point
how to win more readers to livewell like that?
breezyland says (1:50 AM):
even the exercise men do are diff
Vince - whales don't sing in captivity says (1:50 AM):
maybe i can learn something frm this
maybe i can compartmentalise
breezyland says (1:50 AM):
haha...u mus learn to be metrosexual
Vince - whales don't sing in captivity says (1:50 AM):
split myself into different parts
but i tell u this k... i will never write a great article on skin
i just can't do it
Vince - whales don't sing in captivity says (1:51 AM):
fancl, l'oreal, whatever clients, they all taught me that
i read the stuff my boss write for them - then i think tts stupid and shallow
how can i be good at this stuff if i think 'good' = 'bad'
im not fluffy!
breezyland says (1:51 AM):
haha..uea
jus not suited to do these
Vince - whales don't sing in captivity says (1:51 AM):
the very stuff she love, i actually detest
Vince - whales don't sing in captivity says (1:52 AM):
so eventually we split
not coz im no good
she told me im one of the best writers in sg
but she say i got no passion for copywriting
but its really coz i got no passion for her kind of writing leh...........
she's very good at what she does...
but she has 1000 times more estrogen than me
i can't compete
Vince - whales don't sing in captivity says (1:53 AM):
cannot
Vince - whales don't sing in captivity says (1:54 AM):
i dun like bangkok

Bang cock. Geddit?

LOL.


Vince - whales don't sing in captivity says (1:57 AM):
until my outside earning potential outstrip my current job potential
if i can earn 5k a month doing 5 days of work, do u think i wld stay here
breezyland says (1:58 AM):
yes!
spend remaining time with dusky
Vince - whales don't sing in captivity says (1:58 AM):
no, not exactly
dusky is with me for the next 15 years
but after that?
Vince - whales don't sing in captivity says (1:59 AM):
i got to invest some time in preparing for after 15 years too
who is going to change my diapers when im old


If I can afford a private nurse by then, that'll be her.

Otherwise a wife, son or daughter or their nurse/maid works too.



Got to plan ahead yo.



breezyland says (2:00 AM):
hmm
Vince - whales don't sing in captivity says (2:00 AM):
dun stay single
u won't be healthy forever
breezyland says (2:01 AM):
certain things are not for us to decide
breezyland says (2:02 AM):
but i agree with ur statements
Vince - whales don't sing in captivity says (2:02 AM):
many things are for us to decide. very few things are not
very very few things, are not
Vince - whales don't sing in captivity says (2:03 AM):
anyway
so.... tonight im having a revelation
im slowly waking up
this is not a life.
n ot a life to be spent in office every single day
cat can have a better life too
we can both have better life
him not so bored, me not so overworked
find a place in between
breezyland says (2:04 AM):
to do wat we desire
Vince - whales don't sing in captivity says (2:05 AM):
no

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no

Vince - whales don't sing in captivity says (2:05 AM):
to realise that things can be better if we have the courage
imagine life is like jobs
if u give up after getting rejected for jobs
u wld have no job
breezyland says (2:05 AM):
yup..
Vince - whales don't sing in captivity says (2:05 AM):
then u will have no money
Vince - whales don't sing in captivity says (2:06 AM):
and no life
but its not possible to do that
so u keep trying
eventually land a job
not the best job but it pay for life
later then find better one
work is metaphor for life
breezyland says (2:07 AM):
true...
but i think i dun have the courage
to pursue better things in life
Vince - whales don't sing in captivity says (2:08 AM):
coz u have basic things in life
if i take that away frm u
you will have courage.
breezyland says (2:08 AM):
the fear of losing the basic in the process of searching something better
yes
sigh
Vince - whales don't sing in captivity says (2:08 AM):
well, sooner or later those things will go
breezyland says (2:09 AM):
but things dun remain status quo
Vince - whales don't sing in captivity says (2:09 AM):
yup.
so move one step ahead
life is like petrol tank gauge
nobody will continue to drive a car when petrol tank is near empty
they will die die find petrol station refill
Vince - whales don't sing in captivity says (2:10 AM):
its really really very clear cut
breezyland says (2:10 AM):
yup....agree
i'm sleepy
breezyland says (2:11 AM):
but really appreciate u sharing ur thoughts
i do need to take a steo
step
sometime..prob soon
breezyland said (2:13 AM):
hopefully
Vince - whales don't sing in captivity says (2:14 AM):
trust maths
breezyland says (2:15 AM):

k..tata
Vince - whales don't sing in captivity says (2:15 AM):
nite


My days are numbered.

Don't trust maths. Trust statistics.


Ah....It's raining now. Just when I washed and waxed the car.

See what I mean?