da cutest potato chippiees says (12:50 AM):
why not sleepig?
Vince said (12:59 AM):
coz i had a mi er a ble day.
a miserable 4 days? 10 days?
i need to hire a miad.'
a maid.
da cutest potato chippiees says (1:00 AM):
to clean your room?
your office?
your house?
to satisfy you?
hehe
Vince says (1:00 AM):
to take care of my parents.
da cutest potato chippiees says (1:00 AM):
okay being notti
oh...
hmm..
Vince says (1:00 AM):
i told my dad to stop hitting mum on her head
da cutest potato chippiees says (1:00 AM):
well maybe you shld consider hiringone
Vince says (1:00 AM):
and then he broke into tears and said
da cutest potato chippiees says (1:00 AM):
it'snot so expensive i think
Vince says (1:01 AM):
"my life is very mis-re-able you know"
well fuck me
i just went unhinged at that point.
sorry i don't feel very human right now.
da cutest potato chippiees says (1:01 AM):
yeah understand..
Vince says (1:01 AM):
and i still haven't closed magazine yet
da cutest potato chippiees says (1:01 AM):
i guess he has his own issues too..
are u at work?
Vince says (1:01 AM):
no im home.
his issues are my issues.
da cutest potato chippiees says (1:01 AM):
need help?

Vince says (1:02 AM):
i didnt' go get a steady job so that he cld be miserable
da cutest potato chippiees says (1:02 AM):
well he just has to learn to deal
and he just needs to vent
like u vent
Vince says (1:02 AM):
no
need to get him help.
he needs to no longer be at the point where he is so miserable.
thats not him at all.
Vince says (1:03 AM):
today we brought her to doctor
where we found her white blood cell count is 900
urinary tract infection, expl;ains all the uncontrolled peeing over the last 10 days or more
the man has been cleaning poo and pee for the last 10 over days
every 20 min
da cutest potato chippiees says (1:03 AM):
can u get a maid?
Vince says (1:03 AM):
sorry but this is where i lose it and just lost it last night
Vince says (1:04 AM):
i can afford a maid no sweat
im going to get one soon.
da cutest potato chippiees says (1:04 AM):
okay
Vince says (1:04 AM):
just feel very upset and angry
da cutest potato chippiees says (1:04 AM):
i know...
it's frustrating when things are like that
and yet you still have to do with work
but it'll get better
esp with the maid
Vince says (1:04 AM):
actually it make me wonder what normal is like
i have no idea
da cutest potato chippiees says (1:04 AM):
u need maid agencies
da cutest potato chippiees says (1:05 AM):
what u mean normal
there is no such thing as normal
nobody leads a life with no frustration
Vince says (1:05 AM):
there is for everyone else who is healthy
with healthy parents
da cutest potato chippiees says (1:05 AM):
pls!
Vince says (1:05 AM):
u know, everyone else
da cutest potato chippiees says (1:05 AM):
if it's not parents with issues
it's bgr
it's friends
it's work
it's always something!
nothing is perfect
Vince says (1:05 AM):
well can i just say that all of those are FIXABLE
da cutest potato chippiees says (1:05 AM):
no..
that is not true
Vince says (1:05 AM):
yes.
sorry but yes.
Vince says (1:06 AM):
it wld be a mockery of my life.
da cutest potato chippiees says (1:06 AM):
alot of people have non-healthy parents too
some are even poor, they can't do anything
Vince says (1:06 AM):
well not those people obviously.'
da cutest potato chippiees says (1:06 AM):
well...there is always something
Vince says (1:06 AM):
ok nvm, that's my cousin's territory
da cutest potato chippiees says (1:06 AM):
well...
it'll be okay after a period of time
it was improve..
da cutest potato chippiees says (1:07 AM):
it' won't be totally wonderful
Vince says (1:07 AM):
u r so optimistic....
da cutest potato chippiees says (1:07 AM):
but it will work out and be better
i have to be!
hello..
i have a dog
who went for eye surgery
Vince says (1:07 AM):
it will be slightly better for a while and then a gradual spiral until the next thing that happens.
da cutest potato chippiees says (1:07 AM):
that involves me being home at least 3 times a day to put medication for hiim
Vince says (1:07 AM):
until the thing comes that breaks the back
oh... your dog
how old?
da cutest potato chippiees says (1:07 AM):
well...
he is 14 years old
Vince says (1:07 AM):
hmmmm.....
Vince says (1:08 AM):
that is very well along...
da cutest potato chippiees says (1:08 AM):
u know how painful it is be to home 3 times a day
Vince says (1:08 AM):
u cld ride a bicycle
da cutest potato chippiees says (1:08 AM):
i schedule my life ard him. i get my mum to fetch me home every lunch
Vince says (1:08 AM):
it'd tone ur muscles
i schedule my life around my cat
da cutest potato chippiees says (1:08 AM):
i dun have a bicycle and i sweat easily
it's different
i have to walk my dog twice a day
Vince says (1:08 AM):
well ok. one day my cat will be there too.
da cutest potato chippiees says (1:08 AM):
feed him medication even though he doesn't want to eat
clean his silva
it's taking a toil on me..
Vince says (1:08 AM):
isn't it scary to know that everything you love will one day be in that stage.
da cutest potato chippiees says (1:09 AM):
yes
but i'm just saying
it is a phrase
i whine about it
and i get really sian
but i resign myself to it
why, cos i also love my dog and pity him
i think i show him more care now than i did all those 14 years.
and yes i understand..cos he had an eye infection last year and in june and then an eye surgery 3 weeks ago.
da cutest potato chippiees says (1:10 AM):
it like gets better afte ri put medication
until the next time he goes and hurts himself again
it's a never ending story!
but what to do..
just resign yourself to it lor..
whine and then get over it!
Vince says (1:10 AM):
yea well.
da cutest potato chippiees says (1:10 AM):
it's not optimistic really
Vince says (1:10 AM):
so i'll get my dad a maid and change reality again.
da cutest potato chippiees says (1:10 AM):
it's about doing what u have to do!
da cutest potato chippiees says (1:11 AM):
yeah u can try
see what happens
at least u know u're trying
Vince says (1:11 AM):
xiang yun says life stages put different obligations on us
da cutest potato chippiees says (1:11 AM):
of cos..
Vince says (1:11 AM):
but its these things that give life balance and meaning
i love her.
da cutest potato chippiees says (1:11 AM):
i had no maid for 2 months, i became the maid..my life was not good then
but what to do..suck thumb!
she's right...she's very good! hahah
da cutest potato chippiees says (1:12 AM):
well...i guess without these, a smooth sailing life is not worth living.
obligations teach us how to appreciate things, take responsibility and face challenges, be stronger and learn new things
hope u feel better

just suck it up...it'll be okay..improved...
Vince says (1:12 AM):
sure, all those things.
da cutest potato chippiees says (1:13 AM):
okay...
i better leave u to go do your stuff
suck thumb!!!
Vince says (1:13 AM):
as long as its all not so dramatic
i think i can cope.
da cutest potato chippiees says (1:13 AM):
but life is a drama in itself

rest early if u can...

nite nite
takt it easy...
Vince said (1:14 AM):
sigh.
goodnite.


What a weird conversation. I think she's stronger than me but she may have a less tenous grasp of reality.

OR is that me?

Got to give it to her, she makes me doubt myself.

I'm easy.

Then again, she is sucking thumb over a *dog*. And over *no maid*.

And maybe comparing that with ... how do I begin to describe my peaches?

Being an optimist is easy! Everyone should be one!


I'm going to fix this and still be pretty pissed about it okay. It's not like self-pity or anything. I can't whine and then get over it. First, I don't whine. Okay maybe I do. And second, optimism is not really my thing at all.

Just regular platitude-level hubris.

I reserve the right to be angry.