- You like her like her? -

I am unable to sleep. I am reading Haruki Murakami and he is bewitching me.

I'm not sure if it is the hangover or what, but I have been feeling weird all day.

Like I'm looking out of my skull through my eyes from a futher position back in the head.

Everything is a little more distant, my attention flips from moment to moment, I get bored very fast but am engaged quickly as well when the pace picks up. I speed read. I am disconnected from my body, but yet I feel like I have a small person in my head screaming hysterically for help. I feel like I can get whatever I want.

And I just realised that I am *afraid* to fall asleep.


That's right.

I have a fear of crossing over.

You must think I am obviously a very very very wicked person.

I am so craving a drink right now.