David says: (8:13:19 PM)
hey
Vincent says: (8:13:56 PM)
yea,
Vincent says: (8:14:34 PM)
hw are u.
David says: (8:14:39 PM)
k
David says: (8:14:50 PM)
not ok
Vincent says: (8:15:01 PM)
something happened?
David says: (8:16:00 PM)
nothing happened for me yet
David says: (8:16:01 PM)
but i'll update once something does
Vincent says: (8:16:51 PM)
yea. do that
Vincent says: (8:16:54 PM)
i don't bother anymore
Vincent says: (8:16:59 PM)
since its an endless line of crap.
Vincent says: (8:17:06 PM)
not exactly helping anyone with updates.
Vincent says: (8:17:28 PM)
if u wanna hear
Vincent says: (8:17:41 PM)
my other cat stalked and endlessly attacked my sick cat after i brought him home yesterday
Vincent says: (8:17:50 PM)
that piece of shit.
Vincent says: (8:18:02 PM)
maybe it helps u to know that there are cases that are worse than ur life... i dunno ...
Vincent says: (8:18:16 PM)
i sent that pos home back to my boss's house today.
David says: (8:19:44 PM)
oh
David says: (8:20:06 PM)
is the sick one taking well to the environment?
Vincent says: (8:20:10 PM)
pat pat... it's always relative mate.
Vincent says: (8:20:18 PM)
environment? after he was attacke
Vincent says: (8:20:21 PM)
he's been drooling
Vincent says: (8:20:24 PM)
tongue sticking out
Vincent says: (8:20:28 PM)
one eye closed or almost closed
Vincent says: (8:20:36 PM)
fuck ..... i considered putting him down today.
David says: (8:20:40 PM)
oh
Vincent says: (8:20:45 PM)
all i did was step out for a minute to go pee
Vincent says: (8:20:53 PM)
that fucking piece of shit attacked sick cat under the couch
Vincent says: (8:20:58 PM)
can you imagine how cheebye angry i was
Vincent says: (8:21:01 PM)
i cld have killed it
David says: (8:21:07 PM)
yes
David says: (8:21:12 PM)
i can
Vincent says: (8:21:14 PM)
if it weren't the boss's cat
Vincent says: (8:21:19 PM)
i wld have turned it out there and then.
David says: (8:21:21 PM)
i hurt my right main knuckle punching my own head
Vincent says: (8:21:23 PM)
preying on my baby.
David says: (8:21:30 PM)
it's bruised for days
Vincent says: (8:21:39 PM)
i have broken both my fists
Vincent says: (8:21:44 PM)
and its been more than 2 weeks.
Vincent says: (8:22:05 PM)
sleeping in a double decker bed will do that to you.
David says: (8:22:06 PM)
jus realised how hard / tough my head is
Vincent says: (8:22:13 PM)
so easy to punch something when u're lying down and angry
Vincent says: (8:22:21 PM)
u know the inciting incident
Vincent says: (8:22:26 PM)
i was trying to sleep at 10
Vincent says: (8:22:31 PM)
u know i need alcohol to sleep
Vincent says: (8:22:36 PM)
dad comes back at 10 30
Vincent says: (8:22:41 PM)
asks me why his watch is not working
Vincent says: (8:22:51 PM)
i lied there for a full 30 seconds or more trying to wake up
Vincent says: (8:22:56 PM)
and he just stood there like a dumbfuc
Vincent says: (8:23:04 PM)
until he realised i was too gone to answer
Vincent says: (8:23:09 PM)
well by the time he left i was fuly awakw
Vincent says: (8:23:14 PM)
and missed my sleep window
Vincent says: (8:23:16 PM)
which i need
Vincent says: (8:23:22 PM)
in order to wkae up early
Vincent says: (8:23:24 PM)
to come to work
Vincent says: (8:23:29 PM)
and do the shit that pays the bills
Vincent says: (8:23:34 PM)
and to feed my cat and make sure he stays alive
Vincent says: (8:23:35 PM)
fuck
Vincent says: (8:23:38 PM)
so
Vincent says: (8:23:45 PM)
i punched the fuck out of the upper deck
David says: (8:23:53 PM)
I'm supposed to meet the investor next week
David says: (8:23:59 PM)
it has been postponed 3 times
David says: (8:24:05 PM)
for the band investment
David says: (8:24:17 PM)
lead singer arranging for it
Vincent says: (8:24:22 PM)
yea.
Vincent says: (8:24:27 PM)
don't put any hope on it.
David says: (8:24:32 PM)
and he(singer) kept saying the investor's interested
David says: (8:24:33 PM)
I was like
David says: (8:24:34 PM)
wtf
Vincent says: (8:24:40 PM)
can i be the next to say these sort of shit is fucking iffy.
David says: (8:24:40 PM)
don't waste people's time
David says: (8:24:49 PM)
told him that
David says: (8:24:57 PM)
once he gets the act together then call me
Vincent says: (8:24:58 PM)
sorry but u shld have mastered the knack of knowing when things don't work out.
David says: (8:25:19 PM)
i'm now working on getting sponsorship for smaller shit
Vincent says: (8:25:23 PM)
tts better.
David says: (8:25:25 PM)
to get my experience up first
Vincent says: (8:25:25 PM)
vur
Vincent says: (8:25:27 PM)
but
Vincent says: (8:25:31 PM)
i got to tell u
Vincent says: (8:25:33 PM)
when my luck ran out
Vincent says: (8:25:38 PM)
i found a job that paid 2.2k
Vincent says: (8:25:41 PM)
in a starting position
David says: (8:25:50 PM)
yeah
Vincent says: (8:25:57 PM)
it paid 1.8k worth of bills till i cld find something better.
Vincent says: (8:26:01 PM)
im not too proud to be zero
David says: (8:26:14 PM)
yeah
Vincent says: (8:26:16 PM)
sponsorship... more time, less bills paid
Vincent says: (8:26:26 PM)
plus no warrantees.
Vincent says: (8:26:34 PM)
u got to look this horse in the mouth and say, stop
Vincent says: (8:26:44 PM)
stop speculating
Vincent says: (8:26:47 PM)
start earning
David says: (8:27:07 PM)
just closed a couple of shoots for end march and early april
David says: (8:27:11 PM)
but need something now
Vincent says: (8:27:26 PM)
then go earn it
Vincent says: (8:27:39 PM)
in a risk free environment
Vincent says: (8:27:45 PM)
money for work
Vincent says: (8:28:07 PM)
i stopped short at 5 bucks an hour at macs
Vincent says: (8:28:27 PM)
but i did lower my expectations so that an employer wld consider me
Vincent says: (8:28:47 PM)
instead of asking for 3.3k i asked for 2.4 but said it cld be negotiated coz i was looking for a career
Vincent says: (8:29:13 PM)
if u consider being able to live on speculation a worthwhile living, do what i did
Vincent says: (8:29:24 PM)
i mean don't
Vincent says: (8:29:38 PM)
i drew the minimum wage i cld while drawing on a future career
Vincent says: (8:29:46 PM)
why throw away the now for the future
Vincent says: (8:30:05 PM)
don't wait for someone to be ill.
David says: (8:30:09 PM)
k
Vincent says: (8:31:54 PM)
listen
Vincent says: (8:32:03 PM)
potential employers really understand what eating humble pie means.
Vincent says: (8:32:15 PM)
they know exactly who they wld want to hire.
Vincent says: (8:32:40 PM)
find something with a fixed income for now, save all ur spec stuff for when u can afford it
Vincent says: (8:32:53 PM)
right now, you can't afford to speculate. u are 34 soon. time is running out for you.
Vincent says: (8:33:02 PM)
u have 2 kids and a wife, and a home to pay for.
Vincent says: (8:33:18 PM)
the time is long past to take a chance on a big win.
Vincent says: (8:33:27 PM)
i don't have that much to lose
David says: (8:33:31 PM)
k
Vincent says: (8:33:34 PM)
and even i am scared to lose my job.
Vincent says: (8:33:44 PM)
coz what wld happen to me, my family and my life
Vincent says: (8:33:56 PM)
maybe u had a fairly well to do life so far
Vincent says: (8:33:59 PM)
but u are not living it now.
Vincent says: (8:34:05 PM)
tts all i have to say abt that .................
David says: (8:34:36 PM)
understand
Vincent says: (8:35:11 PM)
wish it weren't so.... but life is brutal... more so for u than me coz ur committments are heavier
David says: (8:35:33 PM)
been searching actually
Vincent says: (8:35:38 PM)
if my parents got ill, all that wld happen is that i wld be saddled with debt for the rest of my life
Vincent says: (8:35:49 PM)
i have no future to nurture
Vincent says: (8:36:04 PM)
if ur family is sick in any way, the loss wld be very much more ....
Vincent says: (8:36:23 PM)
im thinking of u ....
David says: (8:36:44 PM)
yes
David says: (8:36:50 PM)
i know
Vincent says: (8:36:57 PM)
give it till the end of march
David says: (8:37:05 PM)
thanks
David says: (8:37:08 PM)
I need this.
David says: (8:37:09 PM)
from you.
Vincent says: (8:37:10 PM)
meanwhile really need to drill down ...
David says: (8:37:14 PM)
I really do.
Vincent says: (8:37:17 PM)
and looking for something with a basic ...
Vincent says: (8:37:26 PM)
i know how hard it is .... im sorry if i've been harsh. . .
David says: (8:37:32 PM)
no bro
Vincent says: (8:37:36 PM)
if i've been harsh to u, i've been harsher to myself
David says: (8:37:38 PM)
I feel more love than harshness now
Vincent says: (8:38:34 PM)
there's nothing wrong with holding a pos job while u look for something better ...
Vincent says: (8:38:45 PM)
meg, that bitch sales who always quarrel with me
Vincent says: (8:38:51 PM)
she just told me y est she's considering quitting us
Vincent says: (8:38:58 PM)
i found out that she has a 32 year old brother
Vincent says: (8:39:08 PM)
who was just arrested again for drug trafficking
Vincent says: (8:39:12 PM)
his second time
Vincent says: (8:39:16 PM)
he has a 3 year old and a wife
Vincent says: (8:39:28 PM)
she said she wanted him to be remanded earlier
Vincent says: (8:39:37 PM)
so that he won't feel tempted to commit another offence
Vincent says: (8:39:42 PM)
but ppl got ot eat
Vincent says: (8:39:48 PM)
and he doesn't have any other marketable talents
Vincent says: (8:39:49 PM)
so
Vincent says: (8:40:01 PM)
he ended up doing the same thing. out on bail, now caught again for the same thing
Vincent says: (8:40:10 PM)
he's looking at 5 to 15 years plus strokes
Vincent says: (8:40:19 PM)
tell me man ... what do u say to that ....
Vincent says: (8:40:37 PM)
u ever felt u had no recourse than to sell drugs to finance ur wife?
Vincent says: (8:40:40 PM)
surely not.
Vincent says: (8:41:05 PM)
just give it a shot k ...
Vincent says: (8:41:14 PM)
nothing is more relieving than a constant income no matter how much
Vincent says: (8:41:25 PM)
just like my cat gets 200 ml of water a day frm my jabbing him in the neck
Vincent says: (8:41:36 PM)
he has a terminal illness. you don't
David says: (8:41:50 PM)
ok
Vincent says: (8:42:51 PM)
you are young
Vincent says: (8:42:52 PM)
healthy
Vincent says: (8:42:56 PM)
vitality is on your side
Vincent says: (8:43:04 PM)
potential, too, coz ur kids cld really make u super happy
Vincent says: (8:43:11 PM)
whichever organisation u join
Vincent says: (8:43:22 PM)
u wld surely rise to the top, because u've done so before and are just at a low point now
Vincent says: (8:43:35 PM)
don't resent the lowness ...
David says: (8:43:41 PM)
yes
Vincent says: (8:43:57 PM)
avoid high risk
Vincent says: (8:43:59 PM)
such as sales
Vincent says: (8:44:05 PM)
all involves promises
Vincent says: (8:44:13 PM)
u cannot fulfill the promise, u lose ur job
Vincent says: (8:44:17 PM)
u got to start all over in a year or two
Vincent says: (8:44:20 PM)
what is the point
Vincent says: (8:44:30 PM)
its really doable.
Vincent says: (8:44:34 PM)
i did after all do it
Vincent says: (8:44:42 PM)
i'm the longest running health editor i know of today
Vincent says: (8:44:44 PM)
every other one has quit
Vincent says: (8:44:51 PM)
and im only 2 years in my job.
Vincent says: (8:46:56 PM)
find a job in which it is difficult to be fired.
David says: (8:48:22 PM)
ok
Vincent says: (8:49:08 PM)
i wldn't recommend thinking too much abt the band
Vincent says: (8:49:14 PM)
if it were ur money, u wldn't jump in either
Vincent says: (8:49:33 PM)
it is exactly why that investor has delayed the meetings.
Vincent says: (8:49:36 PM)
don't blame the band
Vincent says: (8:49:38 PM)
its only normal.
David says: (8:49:55 PM)
yes
Vincent says: (8:50:10 PM)
personally
Vincent says: (8:50:16 PM)
after hearing their single in the car
Vincent says: (8:50:19 PM)
i wld not invest.
Vincent says: (8:50:29 PM)
their music only means something to themselves.
Vincent says: (8:50:58 PM)
its very ordinary
Vincent says: (8:51:10 PM)
they of course believe in their music. all artists do
Vincent says: (8:51:24 PM)
angst doesn't sell anymore
David says: (8:51:58 PM)
what does
David says: (8:52:01 PM)
happiness?
Vincent says: (8:52:07 PM)
what connects sells.
Vincent says: (8:52:15 PM)
do you feel any emotional connection to their best track
David says: (8:52:16 PM)
what does?
Vincent says: (8:53:00 PM)
if u have 10 measly bucks in the whole wide world and their best track won't make u part with it for their cd
Vincent says: (8:53:03 PM)
they don't sell lah.
Vincent says: (8:53:16 PM)
u know what are the odds for making money off music
Vincent says: (8:53:20 PM)
exactly that same odds
Vincent says: (8:53:31 PM)
give them the best producer
Vincent says: (8:53:33 PM)
also same same
Vincent says: (8:53:39 PM)
stuff nobody wants to hear
Vincent says: (8:53:48 PM)
turn it on the radio, switch to different station
Vincent says: (8:54:04 PM)
its me, i dont' feel a connection
Vincent says: (8:54:12 PM)
i got plenty of shit in my own life
David says: (8:54:55 PM)
who do u feel connected to?
Vincent says: (8:54:57 PM)
start being super duper critical .... if u think the track can really make u happy
David says: (8:54:57 PM)
music wise
Vincent says: (8:55:00 PM)
then the music will pass
Vincent says: (8:55:10 PM)
many ways to make music connected
Vincent says: (8:55:17 PM)
can be association with a great tv series
Vincent says: (8:55:26 PM)
great moments in the drama paired with the music
Vincent says: (8:55:30 PM)
but the music has to be appropriate
Vincent says: (8:55:38 PM)
need to elaborate meh
David says: (8:55:39 PM)
uhuh
David says: (8:55:43 PM)
no need
Vincent says: (8:55:49 PM)
u dun feel it, u dun pay money
David says: (8:55:49 PM)
just wanna know ur tastes
Vincent says: (8:55:50 PM)
simple
David says: (8:56:01 PM)
will go pick children up now
David says: (8:56:03 PM)
10 min
Vincent says: (8:56:03 PM)
ok.
Vincent says: (8:56:10 PM)
i will be sleeping and then working
Vincent says: (8:56:16 PM)
im spending all my time in office
Vincent says: (8:56:17 PM)
watching over cat
Vincent says: (8:56:22 PM)
coz he just started eating again
David says: (8:56:28 PM)
ok
David says: (8:56:29 PM)
ttyl
Vincent says: (8:56:29 PM)
think abt u doing that with ur kids k.
Vincent says: (8:56:37 PM)
don't mean to be a jerk abt it
Vincent says: (8:56:50 PM)
ta

My my, aren't I the wise one.

So who is the one still in the office trying to decide what to do with his life A.D. (After Dusky) ?

Did I ever have a life? Who would miss me when I'm gone?

My cat is still drooling and tongue stuck on his upper lip after last night's fight with POS Lucky Cat. Thankfully he has started eating again. 1.5 portions of can-sized fish so far. Right after Lucky left.

That Lucky cat sure is lucky to be my boss's cat. Act all cuddly and purr like a race car to me but attacked my baby behind my back.

I know it's normal cat behaviour.

But I am not a cat. I don't have to fucking live with it.